to the person that i adore so much

Dear Anggara244.

Its almost a half of year we have been together. Remember back the day i fell in love with you, like it was yesterday. At that day, i love the way your eyes sparkle when you smile, i love your attitude, i love how you look, how you dress, how u being extra well educated but still humble, i love how awkward you are, i love the way you being gentle for asked me to switch posisition when the food came with full of smoke. I think it was the time cupid had shoot me.

Time really goes by in a blink of eye. As time passed by we had full trust on each other, loving each other deeper than before, we open our feelings and share any tears, laugh, madness, happiness, also debate in every single time. We know both of us already share the same dream, and i think what i would do in the future is almost closed to you. Do you even realize how amazing you are to me? You are ultimate my big winner. You made my life completely happy and everything in my life is fine. You like walked in when it seemed like the rest of the world walk out. And i know you will always be there.

My dear, i know the past months have been chalenging for us. We encountered so many problem in our relationship (true, mostly because of me). Last week must be so hard for us, especially you, i had hurting you -again- with the mistake that i have made. There is no reason to forgive me, no excuse to apologising me, no chance for me. But you still gave the chance, keep me in win win solution. Im about to drowning, how comes im hurting you like that meanwhile you loving me that much.

I cant handle how desperate am i at that day. i thought im gonna lose you. Im mad at my self, for being selfish. I feel bad for what i did and now im trying to facing the consequences.

Love, forgive me for not knowing. For being oblivious to the fact that i was taking and taking but not giving or understanding.

Dear, i once believe, im an alpha want to be, im realistic and never can be betrayal, i will never get hurt, nothing to lose for me, and i can just moving forward to another guy. But hell, I was proven wrong. I realize how it hurt for losing you at the time, i felt like everything drowning.

And i just want you to know, that im grateful to be at the receiving all your love. Be the person that always you defending for. Your love made me whole, it feels like you lived your life for me. I know you really love me, the road Semarang to Jogja, the cold of morning breeze at 3am, the tiredness and all the tears can told everything.

My sweet ray of sunshine, i love you than the bad days ahead. I will love you always, i love you for infinity, so please if i wake up tomorrow, you still mine.